Mar 4, 20192 min read

March Challenges

Updated: Mar 16, 2019

February was rough! It was a very emotionally taxing month, filled with uncertainty and depression. In all fairness February has never been good to me, so I can appreciate the consistency. Through adversity I still managed to accomplish 4 out of 7 of my goals and make serious headway on the other three. Here's what I accomplished:

Run 35 miles, I ran 36.5
Wake up before 5am EVERYDAY, I wake up at 430 now
2 Blog post
Draft website for business, I drafted 2 versions

"You were tested. Your stumbling forward is admirable. You're driven, you want this. Immersed in the journey, you've embraced everything that's come your way and repurposed that energy. How can you fail? Take a breath. Look around, look how far you've come. Venturing into the unknown has opened your perspective, it's given you a bit a confidence. Realize one thing; the journey is always just beginning and never ending.

Mentality is the key. Difficulties will intensify. Situations will become complex and tax your mental health. Do you really want to reach this paradise you have in "mind"? We shall see. You should know, everything that's working for you, can work against you. Don't get comfortable. Can you not see the beauty in this? The beautiful paradox? No? Yes, that's true! It is quite maddening. An illusion. Smoke and mirrors. What does it really matter? Tell me, why are you doing this?"

I have no clue honestly. As a kid when people would ask "What do you want to do when you grow up?", I would always reply "I don't know, something important". There's an internal compass I'm following, the landscape becomes more familiar as time passes and I'm able to navigate to a part of the land I believe to be paradise. There's really no better way to put it. There is no destination, I can't see a final picture but I have an idea; I can't even see more than a year out, there's just a feeling, a calling. The last thing I want to do is get married to an idea that is not viable in the new world, things change so fast. Or be cripple and undeveloped to the point I'm rendered useless, flooded with thoughts of "What if?". If anything, I want to be aligned with who I know I can be, whatever that means.